Saturday, December 26, 2009

Two Deaths in Silence


We have a friend who is dying. It was sudden. There he was entertaining us, fake punching us, there he was passing out the cards, or ordering the eighth beer tower between the three of us while we're puking our guts out on the floor.

Now he is lying on the bed comatose. Distant, unreachable.

We are sitting on opposite sides of his death bed. Sometimes we glance at each other, hesitantly, never knowing what to expect.

I feel like telling them. The one dying. The one living.

That she has left. That my heart and soul has been ripped asunder. That there is a void in the centre of me so large, so massive, so powerful that it feels like everything might fall in.

But I cannot speak it. It would feel like a mockery.

To speak of living death before the dying.

We both of us die in the still tense silence.

8 comments:

khengster said...

when he left, i died a little bit inside as i watched her succumb to her tumors. i held her hand a lot, and when she told me how lucky he was to have me, i died a little bit more. she died strong, and she died well.

too many deaths in silence, but it's the numbness that eventually kills.

mël said...

eyy thanks for putting my photo in your "navel vision"
haha

PahNur said...

I've learned through personal losses, that in death, we learn about living. Human have the tendency to take their loved ones for granted..it's only human...death is a reminder that we shouldn't.

My consolation for the death of my loved ones are that they are in a better place than where we are right now... only thing, we cannot help but miss them. And that again, is just being human..

p.s I think you may need to use the "subtitle application" on this website, to help some of us comprehend some of the comments in here ;->

MAS melayu tak sedar diri. said...

Yang aku tak tahan kalau Keling jadi Steward atau Stewardess MAS sombong nak mampos dengan Melayu.

Trip aku ke London spoil sebab keling2 steward ni lah.

Bila kita panggil buat sibuk tak nampak.

Bila kita tanya pandai pula menempelak kita depan mat salleh tu macam kita bodoh.

Padahal budi bahasa melayu dan common sense Melayu tentau boleh jawap dengan lebih hormat.

Hospitality tinggi agaknya sebab dia hormat dengan mat salleh agaknya.

Memang aku nak tumbuk stewardess keling tu hari tu dalam kapal terbang aku punya marah!

Biar aku ajor keling stewardess siapa Melayu! hahaha

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